I really get the feeling the 'real' fear is the fear of being sued - not the fear that your baby will have SD. May you be empowered to do what you truly feel is right and safe for YOU and YOUR baby - not what feels safe for these careproviders.
Just as a means of contrast, so you can find your parameters, it might be worth having a chat with an independent midwife - telling them your past history, and what your current cps are saying, then asking, "If I was your client, how would you manage my care and what would you be recommending?" It can create a different perspective and new confidence for you.
Take heart. Don't give up.
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Birth is not only about making babies. Birth is about making mothers ~ strong, competent, capable mothers who trust themselves and know their inner strength.
- Barbara Katz Rothman
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