OOOMMMGGG - can I just say 'me too!!!' You all have my understanding and sympathy!
Sleeping has been deemed 'uncool' in our house too. Not only am I getting up to L (who had a shocking night the night before last but an average night for him last night - ie bed at 6pm, had to resettle him once or twice, feed at 9.40pm, feed at 12.40am, feed at 4.30am then out of bed at 7.30am) He is for the most part sleeping well during the day,
generally has about 2 hours in the morning and an hour and a half in the afternoon, but sometimes he likes to throw me a curve ball just to keep me on my toes - like yesterday. He had a shocking night the night before, so I figured he'd sleep well. Wrong. Couldn't get him to go to sleep till 11am but then he slept till just before 2pm! I must admit, during the day, he sleeps, but I struggle with the lack of routine and never knowing if/how long he's going to sleep.
But DD...OMFG, I swear she's going to be the death of me. We're STILL having issues with her waking at night. I have no idea what has happened, why she has started waking or what to do about it. I admit that last night I was just at the end of my rope so I let her SCREAM for about 20 mins
I just didn't know what else to do. I am soooooo tired and sooooo over the lack of sleep. When I finally couldn't stand it anymore I went back into her and when she calmed down she said to me "But mummy, you made me sad" - holy cow, I bawled my eyes out for about 10 mins, which just upset her again.
In the end I brought her in to bed with us, only to have L wake for his feed just as I was falling asleep
I had a weird dream last night that I fell prg naturally (a very unlikely event!) and that I went for a scan and was prg with twins. Part of me was over the moon (and I couldn't wait to call Michelle to tell her! LOL!) but the bigger part of me was terrified that I wouldn't cope and everyone would finally know what a useless mother I am
I'm just feeling so down about this mothering gig at the moment, I ask myself every day what it is I've done wrong and why my kids just won't SLEEP!! If it were just one, I could live with it, but two is killing me. Why does it seem like every one else has it sorted? I'm supposed to be going to lunch and a play date with a friend of mine today. Thinking about cancelling because I am just so sick of whinging about our sleeping issues and I know it will come up. She has kids that have slept well from birth and man, it's hard to take on days like this!
Well, that's my installment of doom and gloom for now! Who's next?!
Jayne - so sorry you lost your little bunny baby
Argh, gotta go, L is crying.