Hi everyone
Sorry to have been MIA - I just haven't been up to sharing emotionally with what is going on with us at the moment. But before I get onto that, some personals...
Sonya - I am so sorry about your bt results. I was hoping that you would be successful when we weren't. And while I don't have the same competition thing going on with family that you have, there is certainly perceived pressure on me from my mum as I am the only daughter and the only child remaining not to have given her a grandchild. And I can't talk to her about our TTC problems - she probably thinks we are just being selfish and being childless deliberately! But I do understand about not being sure we can financially and emtionally cope with another cycle. Hopefully you won't need to make that decision if your FET works out! Thinking of you
BG - sorry to hear that you are still not feeling well. You're right, maybe having a label of CFS will help people at work understand you a bit better. It is unfortunate that we need to label people to accept them in our lives, even if it is in a work sense. Anyway, I hope you get some answers soon
Holly - hi - I hope DH can find the time this week to get his SA done. How's the new business going? Thinking of you for your next cycle
Hopefully it has been worth the wait!
Megan - glad to hear you finally got those bt results sorted out. The next 4 weeks will fly I am sure!
BW - hope all is well with you. I haven't had a chance to catch up with your journal but will try to pop in.
Hi Lissie and Daisy - hope you are both well...
Anyway, a quick update on me. DF and I have had a long talk about our future with IVF. We are both doubtful as to whether it really provides us with any answers. I spoke to AP this week about my friend who has offered her eggs - she produces about 30 in a cycle but had fert problems apparently. I haven't gone into the details with her but I think she did 2 or 3 cycles the last of which ended up at miscarriage at about the 10 or 12 week mark from memory. My AP said that there is no way they would take her eggs - she is the same age as me so no benefit there and she has not successfully carried a pg. So that is that. Not that I was really sure about the donor egg thing, but at least we know where we stand with it. So, we are going to continue with herbs and AP and try naturally. I think I have pretty much resigned myself to the fact that if we do fall pg, it will be a miracle and yes I know miracles happen, they also more often than not, don't happen. So I am trying to pick myself up and dust myself off and move on with our life - planning our wedding next year and honeymoon - both of which will be overseas. It is going to cost an absolute packet, but we are both looking forward to it. So it is something for me to focus on and each day I am finding that I am getting stronger and I don't collapse in a ball of tears whenever I see a baby in the street or on TV... you all know what I mean.
Anyway, that's it from me. I am not sure how often I will be popping in to say hi but I will keep reading even if I don't post.
Take care lovely ladies, it has been a pleasure knowing you. You have all been such a wealth of support and friendship in this IVF journey. I truly wish you all lots of luck in your journey, wherever it may take you.
Cherylxxx