Oh Kell
I had no idea all this was going on....
I think it all sounds wonderful and I'm so impressed that the 'boys' want to be so much of an active part in Muffin's delivery. I know you can do it, you know you can do it, so stuff the lot of them!
You are so well informed, you know what you are talking about, you are a RN for gods sake!! Even the fact that you are prepared to be in the hossie JIC says you have thought out every scenario and you are willing to do what needs to be done to get Muffin and you through this safely. Just because you have a plan and a dream of how you want your perfect birth to be doesn't mean you are stupid and willing to put you both at risk for the sake of your perfect birth.
You are totally allowed to be over-sensitive and over-analytical at the moment, it's a pregnant womans perogative! You know I'll be down here (SO far away.....
) wishing, hoping and praying you get your perfect birth...nothing would make me happier
. Let it slide off your back Kell, YOU are the one who has to live with the experience of Muffins birth, not anyone else.
Much love.....ahh...times like this I wish I could jump on that plane.....
xxx