[Milly]

Hi Kel:

Well i think everyone else has said it so well but i also just wanted to let you know that yes it is upsetting feeling like you have to justify your actions. When i get really upset i just say to myself "remember this if i ever want to pass judgement on someone else" and this does help me.......

I also wanted to say, the whole drug thing seems funny to me. Would i get an epi for stubbing my toe? would i rush to hospital to have people help me with a paper cut?? NO so WHY would i do it in labour. I dont often say it to other women for the looks or comments i get but there has been NO part of my two labours that i would call painful. Yes there were times in transition with my first DD at i was scared but even that seems to be a too stronger word. I am having a home birth as know one can explain to me why i WOULD go to hospial again. Ill be the first to jump at intervention if NEEDED but NO i will no go to hospital and offer myself up for intervention. I too am a RN and have worked in NICU and ED. I have seen people have negitive outcomes FAR too often to want to enter a hospital for something so natural and easy. I am just so thankful that i came to this place and had the confidence to stand up for myself against this medical model.

I am also one of those FREAKS that have BF my DD's for over 18months, only stopping when they wanted to.

I choose carefully who i tell about what we are planning. I meantioned it to my new rich ***** playgroup the other day just to see them choke on their tea after the 4th one asked me who was doing my C'sec?? My Inlaws have no idea and wont til after the fact. I am lucky that my mum was a MW and is supportive, infact she meantioned to me that i should have one before i got up the guts to tell anyone i was thinking about it. MY DH would not have chosen it but he respects my professional and personal stand on the matter.

I am also having a home birth NOT so my DD's feel like they have too but so they have the confidence to be able to say my mum could do it. this is the same reason i BF in public and dont give my DD's bottles to play with their dolls. I want to show them a positive "norm" and not one manufactured by BIG companies and goverments...

Be proud and sometimes if you dont have the energy say "Yes booked in to have my Csec and cant wait for those drugs LOL"

good luck