[briggsy's girl]

i was thinking just this morning that we've all gone mighty quiet in here - seems we go in waves doesn't it?!?!? i've been kinda hiding in my journal a little, but even there only posting a little bit - partially because there has been not a lot happening, but more because i'm in denial that i have to go through another AC cycle of any sort! having an ostrich moment (head in the sand) and really don't want to acknowledge anything at all!

having said that, i've just started another IUI cycle (so the ostrich is being forced to poke her head up every now and again!). injections started monday, with u/s to check follies Monday next week. i don't feel at all confident. had an u/s last week to check on why i was getting niggles around right ovary, and i seen a blob that looked like a large follie (was 22x15mm) on the scan, but BT showed hormones flat. leads me to believe that it must be an ovarian cyst - similar blob was noted on u/s before medicated FET 1, but not FET 2- and is now there again - wtf???. it's still ouchie now, but tolerable. i'm just worried that it's going to cause me dramas with this cycle. as BW mentioned in my journal, it's better to know now and have an IUI cancelled rather than a full stim for IVF - but it's still a very depressing prospect. i'm even at the point where i'm reluctant to jab myself at night - it's stupid, but it's easier to be in limbo land and KNOW nothing is going to happen, than to be stimming and be scared of cancellation/BFN/chemical pg again....


ahhhhhhhhhhhh, the joys of AC!