[nickers]

Mel- my heart aches for you it really does. it isnt far you have had to endure the loss of your second son let alone your first, you do deserve a child that you can hold in your arms till he grows into a man
you have such courage to share your story of lillt Josh it mustnt have been easy writting it all down.
Both Nicolas and Joshua are in my thoughts as i am sure they are cuddling each either from above looking at their wonderful parents and missing you as much as you miss them