Hi everyone,
I just wanted to post this in memory of our loved little angel babies who have flown from us....
Yesterday was a devastating day, when we went in for a scan at 8 weeks and 5 days, (after two early scans where we had seen a beautiful heartbeat) only to see our loved little one's heart had stopped beating 2-3 days before.
We wanted this baby so much. In Feb March this year I had a curette, after a missed m/c...and after that it was discovered I also had an ectopic pregnancy. I was rushed back into hospital and lost my right tube in the process...and also learnt my left tube was in very bad shape, with scarring etc. At some time I obviously had some kind of inflammation/infection and didn't even know it...I have always had severe and heavy periods and the doctor said sometimes it's therefore hard to differentiate symptoms of something more. That meant we were faced suddenly with the prospect of going through IVF to have a baby. The irony, after years of delaying having children 'until the right time' suddenly we were going to battle to have one.
Our first stimulated IVF cycle failed, and we then had a FET which was successful. We felt such joy and elation...our turn had come! It was time to rejoice and be happy.
That was until yesterday when we realised our precious baby had flown from us.
We will resume IVF when we are ready and have grieved. Life is a limbo of waiting to have a baby. I am very very sad...and also angry and bitter right now.
Sending love and light to our precious angel babies...we loved you. To our most recent angel ....the sight of your flickering heart on the screen made us fall in love with you even more....we know you tried hard to stay with us and you will never be forgotton.
Last edited by Possums; October 18th, 2008 at 08:35 PM.
I am so sorry Possums... I know how loved and wanted your babies were and I was so sad to read your post yesterday... Please lean on us all in here and know that in time this pain will heal (though never entirely) & one day you will smile again, I promise.
Sending you loving support as you grieve your baby...
I'm so very sorry Possums. Please allow yourself to grieve and know that we are all here for you.Take care of yourself and your DH too. Also know that sometimes men handle losses completely different to us women and that is ok too... Sending you
Sweetie, I am ever so sorry for the loss of your angels..... please give yourself time to greive,get angry,be sad,yell scream just let it out...... really am sorry hun x
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