I am okay. Just had surgery to have my gall bladder removed so I have been feeling very sorry for myself. I have good days and bad days and the silliest things can still get me crying!
How are you?
Thanks for thinking of me - I appreciate it.
I hope that the surgery means that you are feeling better physically.
I noticed you mentioned Zachary would have been 3 months old recently. I am glad you have brought it to our attention as it is important to keep intouch with people when you are feeling low. 3 months is a huge milestone isn't it. I bet it still really hurts that he is not here, just as you said. I imagine that those friends of yours who have recently had babies would more than understand how you are feeling. I am sure they do not begrudge you feeling guilty that you are not able to share their joy as they would most likely feel exactly the same way if they were in your situation. I know that I would (and do) understand. I think that you have a few free passes up your sleeve to just feel exactly as you need to at the moment.
How am I? Not bad I guess. Life presents its ups and downs on many different levels. I wont bore you with the details here and now, but suffice to say, I am keeping my chin up.
I wish you and your husband the very best if and when you decide to try to get pregnant again. Zachary can take on a new role of being a guardian angel, both to you and your husband and to any potential siblings - what a lovely thought!
The surgery went well and I on the mend - so it is a good thing.
Yes - Zachary would have been 3 months old last Friday. It is extremely hard that he is not here and my heart aches every day for him.
You would not bore me. I feel like I need to be supportive to you as you have been to me. So any time you want to let it all out - I am here.
On another note. I am having problems with my account. Every time I try and access my details or someone else's profile it won't give me access? Have you ever encountered this problem? I don't know why it is doing it?
We are looking at trying for another baby now that the surgery is over. I am so scared it is going to take a long time. we will never replace Zachary but we have so much love to give. Zachary as a guardian angel is a beautiful thought. Thank you.
Thanks again for your messages - it keeps me going
I have only stumbled across your story now and juat wanted to send you lost of hugs. I am so very sorry for your loss. I sincerely hope that 2010 brings healing to you and your family. I hope you have found and continue to find lots of support in real life and on BB. You are in my thoughts.
Lots of love, Sasa
I just noticed that I misread the date on your first post. i though you had lost Zachary last year. And I saw that you have since welcomed Zachary's little brother into your family. I am so glad you have a little boy to give all that love to, that you have to give. I am sure Zachary is watching him and protecting him as a big brother should.
Last edited by sunshine_sieben; February 2nd, 2010 at 10:16 AM.
Hi Sasa
Thanks for your thoughts. Our little Zarian is wonderful but Zachary will always be in my heart and in my thoughts. I still miss him terribly. I haven't been on here for a while so I need to do some catching up. Do you mind sharing your story with me?
I have not lost a child, so I can't even start to imagine the loss you feel. I stumbled across your story while browsing through Belly Belly.
I saw you're on the Gold Coast, too!
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