Long Term Assisted Conception - May 2008

[Hollybolly]

Hey Everyone

Just thought I would do a quick post in here, as it seems we've all deserted this thread for the time being

It always amazes me how we all seem to be going ahead at the same time or having a rest at the same time (mind you, I've been rested for close to 2 yrs now )

DH is intending the sample to be done this week... OMFG I am so sick of life just getting in the way all the time!!!

Things in our house are stupid busy with the business... and with Dh's younger brother basically living with us, as he was selected to play in a soccer team down here now.
All of a sudden I'm a mum to a 9yr old, 31yr old (DH!!!) and now a 15yr old... and they're all boys - everyone needs to pray for some extra girl vibes for me when I finally get this cycle moving!!!!

I'm just teasing - the being busy is fun, but not enough hours in the day!

Hopefully we're all on track very soon - thinking of every single one of you xxx

[briggsy's girl]

i was thinking just this morning that we've all gone mighty quiet in here - seems we go in waves doesn't it?!?!? i've been kinda hiding in my journal a little, but even there only posting a little bit - partially because there has been not a lot happening, but more because i'm in denial that i have to go through another AC cycle of any sort! having an ostrich moment (head in the sand) and really don't want to acknowledge anything at all!

having said that, i've just started another IUI cycle (so the ostrich is being forced to poke her head up every now and again!). injections started monday, with u/s to check follies Monday next week. i don't feel at all confident. had an u/s last week to check on why i was getting niggles around right ovary, and i seen a blob that looked like a large follie (was 22x15mm) on the scan, but BT showed hormones flat. leads me to believe that it must be an ovarian cyst - similar blob was noted on u/s before medicated FET 1, but not FET 2- and is now there again - wtf???. it's still ouchie now, but tolerable. i'm just worried that it's going to cause me dramas with this cycle. as BW mentioned in my journal, it's better to know now and have an IUI cancelled rather than a full stim for IVF - but it's still a very depressing prospect. i'm even at the point where i'm reluctant to jab myself at night - it's stupid, but it's easier to be in limbo land and KNOW nothing is going to happen, than to be stimming and be scared of cancellation/BFN/chemical pg again....


ahhhhhhhhhhhh, the joys of AC!

[Chez67]

Hi everyone

I just thought I would pop my head in and see how you are all going. I was surprised to see that this thread is so quiet. Your're right Holly, it seems that the activity seems to come in waves.

Well there is very little to report from me. The break since our 3rd cycle has been a good opportunity to reflect on what is important to me and to DF. We are still in a mind not to go back to IVF because of all of the reasons I have mentioned in previous posts.

I am continuing to get acupuncture and herbal treatment from a lovely lady here, who is very good for me and reminds me that I do tend to push myself too hard. For the first time for a very long time I actually managed to get to a 28 day cycle -normally I am only 25 or 26. My AP's theory is that my luteal phase is too short. She is also concerned about some other things like lack of EWCM (sorry if TMI ) and so is working on that. Basically we are giving it until the end of the year with the AP and naturally TTC and after that we will close the book on this part of our life.

I have decided to take a break from my uni study this semester and to focus more on the things I want to do rather than what I have to do. We have also just decided to sell our investment property and put the money towards bills (the credit card managed to mount up over the last cycle ) and towards our wedding and honeymoon next year. That will take a lot of the pressure off us on a monthly basis.

My girlfriend had a lovely baby boy last month, so I am keen to go and visit her and the bub soon. Maybe next month. She is interstate unfortunately.

But there are lots of things to keep me busy. I am taking much more interest in the environment and researching planning a small vege patch and getting some compost going in the backyard. While we enjoy shopping at the local Farmers Market each week, it still nice to have your own home grown veges. DF has been applying for jobs interstate so you never know we may end up moving. If we do I have decided I want to live outside of the city where I can have some chooks, and grow veges and herbs etc. (We have a small backyard and don't really have the room to go large scale here.) Then I will work from home, maybe even part-time, for a while.

Anyway, that's enough about me.

Holly and BG - I think of you all of the time. Your courage to continue is inspiring. You are amazing ladies to continue with this AC journey and balance this with the demands that you each have in your lives.

Good luck everyone, I will pop in from time to time to see how you all are.

Cherylxxx

[briggsy's girl]

hi chez!! so sorry i haven't replied to you in a couple of days - things always seem to be flat out - or i'm too tired - to be able to post a decent reply (lots of chatterbox ones everywhere, but nothing that takes real thought!!). have been thinking about your post, and all the changes you're making, and have to say i admire you - as much as you're still undecided on the IVF front, it sounds like you're making some amazing progress in getting the rest of your life the way you want it - and with a wedding in the not to distant future, you have a lot laid out before you. wishing you all the very best


as for me - well, we're in the middle of another IUI cycle - am currently 5days post IUI - and omg - i feel TERRIBLE!! am so tired, and have the worst upset tum - and i can't attribute it to anything in particular as the pregnyl boosters give similar side effects to early pg! how rude!!!! have started to develop a sore-ish throat and feel like i might have a bit of a head cold on it's way (very headachey), but then again, it might just be that i'm not feeling great just for today... went to chiro today to try to get on top of headaches - got told to go home to bed cos he'd "never seen me so feverish" - my cheeks were extremely red - but have calmed down this arvo... been very deydrated too. i think i'm just at that point of wanting to know - but of course, it's not that easy!!

[Chez67]

Hi BG

Thank you for your wonderful words of support as always! And BTW I LOVE your new avatar. Very stylish and individual - like you I expect!

You definitely sound like you are coming down with some winter lurgy. I hope you have been staying home, keeping warm and taking it easy. I wish you the best of luck with your current cycle

Take care and will pop in again soon.
xx

[briggsy's girl]

four days home doing nothing (lived in my jim jams in front of the heater - which i even turned on occassionally!!) apart from a couple of trips to the quack. had my second (and final) pregnyl booster last night, and am feeling ok about this cycle. have had sore bb's even before the booster last night - and the previous booster should have pretty much been out of my system by then... and heart burn from simple things like home made vegie soup - how rude!! also been gagging a bit but mostly cos i've been coughing a lot. Dr suspects it might turn bacterial on my chest but i'm reluctant to take antibiotics unless i KNOW it's gone bacterial - kinda pointless to take them for a virus. so for now, we're just waitin it out i guess...

[Chez67]

Oh BG

I am sorry that you have had to endure the winter lurgy along with all of the side effects of pregnyl... talk about a double dose of discomfort. I have my fingers crossed for you and saying lots of prayers . Take care of yourself.

xx

[sonya1]

hi everybody. tried to post earlier but something funky was going on in cyberspace

been tracking since friday (day 12) and have the all clear for FET on monday. have to ring clinic on sunday mid-arvo to see if my last embie has thawed successfully.

have no excitement this time. only stress and fear. we are all out of money and cannot afford anymore stim cycles. this last one i had 7 eggs, 5 fert and only 2 made it to blastie. my first transfer was a bust, so a lot is riding on this last one. but i am so scared that after a poor blastie rate that this one will fragment away. oh well might need some emotional help from a professional if this all goes bust.....

take care evrybody, chat again soon.....

[Hollybolly]

Sonya hun, I have EVERYTHING crossed for you for this one... and will be thinking about your little one staying strong on Sunday

Stay positive and focused.... try not to think 'this is the last one' because you're putting extra stress and pressure on yourself

You never know, money can come at the strangest times from the strangest places.... you may have the $$$ for another stim cycle before you know it

Lots and lots of positive vibes being sent your way for this weekend and Monday xxxx

[Chez67]

Hi Sonya

I have everything crossed for you for the next few days

Take care
xx

[briggsy's girl]

sorry i haven't been in much lately - not havng the greatest time - but before i start the "woe is me" waffle, just wanting to wish Sonya all the best for the next few days - i have everything crossed for you!

for me - well, it's all over - again. positive on tuesday, made it past 14dpo, but bloods back down to one on Thursday when i started to bleed - yet another chemical pregnancy - that makes three in less than a year - out of 6 attempts. sucks hugely. am so over this. not sure what we'll do - am taking some time out from treatment now - timing wise we can't go through the next local IVF as DH has some stuff going on with work that will make it difficult for him to be home - plus i need to spend some time to get my head on right work wise - have had some major dramas (that are better left for another place another time) - but effectively i want to be able to stick it up them! we might go the IUI route again after we see the FS in a couple of weeks, but for now, we're just focussing on getting ourselves right again physically and emotionally

good luck to holly and sonya with their upcoming cycles!

[Loula]

Hi ladies

I have been MIA for way too long!

just want to let you all know that i have not been TTC since after our last MC in March and wont be for the rest of the year. it has taken its toll on me emotionally and need to have some space for a while- hence why i have been so quiet and i was personally attacked while sourcing advice and help.

this has made me feel that bb is no longer a place where i can post my thoughts and feelings and it may take a while for me to gain that trust again

I do wish you all the very best with all your treatments and im sorry to hear that some are having a rough time at the moment

Look after yourselves

Lou

[odette]

Lou
that is shocking that someone personally attacked you.
How dare they
Just know that us girls are always here for you- whatever!!!!!! that is what it all about- no judgement just support
take care of yourself hon and know that were are always here for you!!!!
hopefully we speak soon
keep in touch
odette
xxx

[sonya1]

well i have cancelled my cycle. i was due to have my last embie thawed this arvo and transferred tomorrow. but at 11am i had some spotting. its only very light but enough for panic stations. after an hour i finally got through to my nurse and asked to cancel as its my last chance at a baby.

she is suprised on the spotting and how my last period was a week late. so next cycle i will use progesterone pessaries... as yucky as they are i feel really positive about the change of plan. so hopefully AF arrives in full swing over the next couple of days and i cam start my tracking again...

to lou and BG. chin up girls. take care of your special selfs and all the time you need to emotionally recover.

[Loula]

im so sorry to hear your news sonya, and that i didnt get back to you sooner


look after yourself

[Chez67]

Hi Sonya

I am sorry to hear that this FET was cancelled but at least you found out in time to cancel the thawing of your last embie. Hopefully the addition of the pessaries will be just the change that you need.

Take care of yourself hun and I hope AF is in full swing by now (I can't ever remember posting that one before!)
xx

[sarab]

Hello Ladies,

I have been reading through all your posts - and it is so nice to find other people having similar thoughts & feelings to me. It is also so encouraging to know that you all support each other.

Hoping it is ok to introduce myself & join your forum.

Been trying to conceive since June 06 - I tried 3 cycles of IUI - 2 successfully pregnant - but both turned out to be Ectopic & had emergency surgery both times. Lost one fallopian tube & the other is not in good shape.

Am currently in the middle of my first IVF cycle. Egg pick up tomorrow.

Feeling pretty good at this point - just a little apprehensive about tomorrow - trying not to get my hopes up too much.

I feel really lucky that I haven't had any real side effects so far with the drugs etc.

Hoping that being positive will give me psoitive results.

All the best of luck to all of you. My thoughts are with you all.

Kind Regards,
Sara ;

[briggsy's girl]

welcome Sara - and good luck for tomorrow!!!

i'm so sorry that you've had to go through so much hell and are continuing to do so - but we'll be here to support you through it all! it's a little quiet in here at the moment as most of us are "taking a break" or "waiting" or whatever other description you can use!! but we're still there for each other, and will be there for you!!

again, all the best for tomorrow - let's hope it's the only EPU you ever have to go through!

a little hint - take a heat pack with you if you have a long trip home - if not - have one waiting at home - they are a godsend after EPU (when you're still allowed to use them!)