Pregnancy after Late Loss ~ Recurrent Miscarriage ~ Stillbirth - August 2008

[Tildy]

I had my follow-up this morning and everything looks great. I haven't bleed since those few hours a week ago (and some brown guck coming out the couple days after that), bubs measured exactly 8w5d and the heartbeat was so clear even I could see it. It's got a head and tiny little arms and legs now! This doc said she didn't see anything that looked like blood in there and that it sounds like the bleeding last Friday was the hematoma emptying itself out, which is only a good thing. There was a black area between the placenta and the inner cervical opening (the placenta is still covering, though has perhaps already moved up a smudge), but she didn't think it was blood, just a space. If it was blood it would most likely be coming out, and I'm definitely not bleeding.

So things are calm, at least for another week... and my m/s is back, bigger and better and stronger than before. :P Yay for feeling pukey! In other words, I'm starting to feel a bit pregnant...

Look at BW's ticker! 20 weeks! Congratulations!

[angelicdragon]

Jo for todays very special release of Madison Rose to the Angels. Thinking of you and your family.
hugs
Jude

[Laney]

Hi Ladies,
I took a home pregnancy test when I woke up in the middle of the night to pee. I didn't see a second red line show up so I tossed it in the garbage. I strangely felt a little relief to not be pregnant yet. Well....when I woke up fully I went back into the bathroom and decided to give it another look for some reason. IT WAS POSITIVE! I thought it would be because my ovaries have been really hurting and I don't feel so great today. It is still about 5 days befor my expected period. I can't call the doctor for another hour or so, still too early here. I will be put on heparin right away. I am just that this little baby bean grows strong roots! I just can't imagine going through another late loss.


Parker 7/27/07 @ 22 weeks
Shelby 5/27/08 @ 28 weeks

[Miss Lizzy]

Laney, congratulations! That's wonderful news - here's to a sticky little bean and a happy and healthy 9 months!

Katiegirl, BW and Judey, congratulations on your nice round 30 wks, 20 wks and 9 wks. That's great to see.

Angelicdragon and Katigirl, I wasn't given the figure for the hb. It was an in-rooms u/s so I don't know if it could be done and he was pretty swift. He just said "a bit slow" and then "if this pregnancy looks like going to term, I'll write you an authority clexane script"... Unfortunately, those words have wrung in my ears for a couple of days but they are now being banished. You're right though, the hb starts out slow so hopefully all will be fine in 2 wks and I might ask my gp for a scan in the mean time, for peace of mind. I was exactly 6 wks, the embryo measured 6wks 2 days and the sack a little under that.

Tildy, I'm so happy for you that this recent scan gave such good news. No bleeding, a strong h/b and exact measurements. Well done and enjoy feeling pukey!

Thinking of you Jo, I don't have the words but you are in my prayers.

[angelicdragon]

Miss Lizzy that sounds like with me, bub measured 3 days ahead at 6w5d yet the sac only measured 6w and I was 6w2d. The h/b has increased considerably from 125 to 178 ... hopefully your next scan your Ob won't worry you so much.

Laney that is so kewl Congratulations hun and lets hope yo go the full distance this time with the help of the heparin. I'll have everything crossed for you.

hugs
Jude

[stickybaby]

Go Laney, all the very best and I hope the heparin does thed trick.
Hope everyone is well... OR NOT.... whichever you prefer. We seem to have some odd ones here wishing they were sick... No Im kidding, I know exactly what you mean when you say you want to feel pregnant.
I am a little better today. This is the fourth day with diarrhea and it has improved since thismorning, so its come to an end.
I havent been that sick just cramps and BAD diarrhea... SORRY
I jinxed myself cos I was raving on about not feeling sick this pregnancy, and sure enough I get a tummy bug and a temp, it got up to 39 at one stage which worries heaps,does anyone else think that it could do some harm????

[Miss Lizzy]

Hi Stickybaby. Don't be afraid to take panadol to keep that temp down. A nurse told me I can take (I think) 6 or 8 a day and be safe which is better than persisting with a temp. (I had the flu when I found out I was pregnant and a temp of 39 too.)

There are a lot of gastro bugs around atm. Hope you feel 100% soon.

[stickybaby]

Hi Miss Lizzy, thanks.. I woke up with the high temp overdue for the panadol, its pretty bad to get up over 39 isnt it? Here I go with the worry and anxiety.
I think we are due the same day. (Not that it ever happens on the due date) I wouldnt be suprised if I get to my scan (10th Sep) and discover I am a week or more behind my own dates, its happened with every pregnancy so far. Maybe I should just add two weeks everytime I get pregnant, and thats my date.
Are you well Miss Lizzy?? No M/S??

[Tildy]

stickybaby, our midwife told us that the average natural birth actually occurs 8 days after the due date... that is, statistically we're usually pregnant for 41 weeks! Wonder why they persist in counting 40 weeks then.

Well, I should probably keep my mouth shut when I have good news. We were planning on going to the store last night after watching a show on TV, and as soon as I stood up from the couch I felt I was dripping. Went to the bathroom and saw that I had a gush of blood AGAIN. But now we're practically experts on this stuff, so when we saw that the bleeding came in one gush and then tapered off (today just some darker staining), we decided to be zen about it and that we will call the doctor's or the midwife on Monday and tell them about it. I guess it really is true that we have to accept that it will end the way it ends, and that we can only cross our fingers and hope.

[Lee]

Hi ladies,

Just dropping in very quickly to say congratulations to Laney on your BFP - and I'm praying like mad you carry this precious bundle to term

Jude - how are you going - 9 weeks is so good to see on your ticker!! That coffee must be getting close now huh!!

I have changed tickers, so you can view my gorgeous dark haired chubby cheeked girl - we are truly smitten by her, and feel very blessed she is here with us. After a devastating loss, most of us can surely understand, and have learnt never to take anybody for granted, to count our blessings.

Keep the faith ladies, and keep supporting each other, I'm living proof that if you keep trying you can realise your dream of bringing home a healthy precious baby.

Belly rubs to you all.

Lee xo

[Laney]

Hi Ladies,

Lee- she is so beautiful.

Stickybaby- I get cramps and diarrhea for the whole first trimester and a bit into the second. I hope yours doesn't last that long. There were times when I was afraid to leave the house.

Tildy- I wish that I was able to be so calm about things. I had bleeding on and off for a month with Shelby early on. The doctor told me a thousand times that there was nothing that he could do and I still called him in the middle of the night for the smallest thing. Stay strong.

SB- I miss your monster posts. Let us know how you and little shane are doing.

Barb- how is bed rest going? I hope you are doing well.

I started Lovenox injections yesterday. The first one was very difficult. Shots don't bother me at all when other people do them. There was just something about doing it myself that was hard. Now that I am past my second injection it is much easier. I can tell that my belly is going to look pretty awful in a few weeks.

Parker 7/27/07 @ 22 weeks
Shelby 5/27/08 @ 28 weeks

[Flowerchild]

Lee - Remy is absolutely gorgeous - just gorgeous!!! I understand that feeling of finally bringing home a precious precious baby after many goodbyes - drink in this time and know that we are all sharing in your happiness.

Laney: Your belly will look awful - but it's well worth it. Mine was an absolute mess by the end of the pregnancy - but it was partly the heparin that gave me my Imogen. I hope this works too for you in giving you your special Earth Baby.

Tildy: You are doing so well to take the bleeding in your stride. Good on you - and hang on tight Lil Tildy!

Jo: How are you??? sending you the warmest hug my love. My thoughts have been with you for days.

Jude: How is that bed rest going? I hope you are okay. :Hug:

[Miss Lizzy]

Hi all!

Lee, Remy is gorgeous and they sure are chubby cheeks. I love chubby cheeks! Enjoy.

Stickybaby, I'm a bit slow and hadn't realised we're a day apart! That's exciting. I think they say not to let a temp persist above 39 when pregnant and you didn't, so you'll be fine. Are you feeling better generally now? That's a bugger when your pregnant. As for me, I'm feeling a bit 'queesy' this afternoon and it's wonderful. My bbs weren't so sore lately and I was beginning to worry, but they're back again today. Phew.

Tildy, I felt so proud of your calm post and some of the calm rubbed off on me. Isn't it the truth that after a certain point, it's out of our hands? Gushes of blood must be awfully frightening when they happen. You and DH hang in there and hopefully it's just that nuisance heamatoma again and your little one is fine.

How are you feeling Jude? How about you BW? Is the m/s under control a little more? (Sorry if confused, it was Jude or BW who might need to be admitted to hospital if m/s persisted?)

Hi Laney, I'm on clexane too. You're right, it takes a little courage to inject yourself. My stomach is now all bruised and I've nowhere else to inject but back into a bruise. Sometimes now I bleed at the injection site a little and that must be the thinner blood. But if you don't think too much about it, it's not so bad. It was that 2nd jab with me that was the last hurdle too. Now when I do the injection, I feel a sense of being safe for another 24 hrs. I almost forgot the other night and panicked when I was an hour late. These and my progesterone pessaries are like emotional crutches for the time being.

[butterfly_warrior]

I think it's Jude with the morning sickness, I'm struck down with the severe anemia. I seem to be slowly getting on top of it (and the constipation) with the help of dried apricots. There are still some days where I'm left extremely tired and barely able to think coherently, I read every day, but struggle a lot to mash my thoughts into coherent words. I'm resting as much as I can, and I'm feeling my little man kick more and more every day. Although, I feel like I'm a bit strange, it's not a sensation I'm enjoying so far, and if he kicks in the wrong place I really feel quite awful from it. Does it get better as time goes on, or am I just a peculiar person?

BW

[Miss Lizzy]

Sorry BW - that's right, I remember now. You poor thing. It's tiring enough without this anaemia too. Glad you are able to rest. Dried apricots are great for constipation. Dates and prunes have non-heam iron in them and would help too.

I think the kicks, once you get used to them, will be welcome and not at all strange.

[butterfly_warrior]

I keep looking up lists of iron-rich foods and then forgetting half of what I just read! Thanks for the info on the dates and prunes - fighting the anemia and constipation at the same time is a huge bonus! The dried apricots have been great, but it's nice to know that there's other things that will work too.

As happy as I am to be pregnant, and as reassuring as it is to be getting such strong kicks so often... I just don't think I've adjusted to the idea of having another human being inside me... I hope it does become less disconcerting as time goes on (and that he will eventually stop hitting that one spot that always makes me want to puke!). I think that it's perhaps because I've always been someone who has highly valued my own personal space, and there's no being alone now... I guess things won't be too different once he's on the outside. At first I was impatient because 9 months seemed like such a long time to grow a baby... now I realise that we need that amount of time to adjust to the new little being that's about to enter our lives!

BW

[Flowerchild]

Rozzie where are you my love??? If you read this will you please let me know that you are okay? I have been worried - and it's been days since we have heard from you.

[Rozzie27]

Hi,

I'm still here, still reading. I'm ok, still a bit thrown that this pregnancy and treatment may not turn out to be as straightforward as I'd thought. But I simply won't know anything until my scan in three and a half weeks so I'm trying not to worry until then, although of course I've been going through all the worst case scenarios in my head! I tend to focus more on the negative things doctors say than the positive. I've had a combination of MS and a cold which has been fun too, although my folks and some of their friends from Canada visited during the week so that was a nice distraction.

I go back to work in a week which is starting to stress me out a bit. I don't know how people are going to be around me, I hope they act like nothing's happened and treat me normally because I'm not sure how I'll react. Then there will be people who saw me in maternity uniform but may not know what happened, so will probably ask about the baby. Not looking forward to that.

Love Rozzie