Zachary - our boy born sleeping

[Zachary's Mom]

I am okay. Just had surgery to have my gall bladder removed so I have been feeling very sorry for myself. I have good days and bad days and the silliest things can still get me crying!

How are you?
Thanks for thinking of me - I appreciate it.

[jackrose]

Youch!

I hope that the surgery means that you are feeling better physically.

I noticed you mentioned Zachary would have been 3 months old recently. I am glad you have brought it to our attention as it is important to keep intouch with people when you are feeling low. 3 months is a huge milestone isn't it. I bet it still really hurts that he is not here, just as you said. I imagine that those friends of yours who have recently had babies would more than understand how you are feeling. I am sure they do not begrudge you feeling guilty that you are not able to share their joy as they would most likely feel exactly the same way if they were in your situation. I know that I would (and do) understand. I think that you have a few free passes up your sleeve to just feel exactly as you need to at the moment.

How am I? Not bad I guess. Life presents its ups and downs on many different levels. I wont bore you with the details here and now, but suffice to say, I am keeping my chin up.

I wish you and your husband the very best if and when you decide to try to get pregnant again. Zachary can take on a new role of being a guardian angel, both to you and your husband and to any potential siblings - what a lovely thought!

[Zachary's Mom]

The surgery went well and I on the mend - so it is a good thing.

Yes - Zachary would have been 3 months old last Friday. It is extremely hard that he is not here and my heart aches every day for him.

You would not bore me. I feel like I need to be supportive to you as you have been to me. So any time you want to let it all out - I am here.

On another note. I am having problems with my account. Every time I try and access my details or someone else's profile it won't give me access? Have you ever encountered this problem? I don't know why it is doing it?

We are looking at trying for another baby now that the surgery is over. I am so scared it is going to take a long time. we will never replace Zachary but we have so much love to give. Zachary as a guardian angel is a beautiful thought. Thank you.

Thanks again for your messages - it keeps me going