i lost my son at 25wks on 30th of sept - Pregnancy, Birth & Baby Forums ~ BellyBelly

MAMAGLO · #1 (**permalink**) October 12th, 2008, 02:01 AM

i feel so empty and depressed and the only way to get relief is to hear and be encouraged by others who have experienced a loss just like i just did. i went for my routine prenatal check up and the doc couldn't find the baby ,s heart beat. since then , i have been living in one pain filled world which i cant come to terms with yet .took 4days in the hospital before i could deliver my dead baby .those were four days of unimaginable pain and anguish knowing that my dear precious one was lying there without breath i couldn't eat and had to be given drugs to sleep.After 12 hours of excruciatingly painful and hard labor my baby was brought out and my heart broke when i saw how tiny and like a doll he looked with a full head of hair already. its been very hard for me especially with my fiancee far away in china workin and cant come to be with me.:

Sammiejane · #2 (**permalink**) October 12th, 2008, 03:38 AM

I am sorry for your loss

I have t got an experience to share with you, but there are girls in here that have experienced similar situations, hopefully they will pop in and offer some assistance
With time the pain will lessen.
Take care of yourself

aussienic · #3 (**permalink**) October 12th, 2008, 06:40 AM

I am so sorry

ClareBear28 · #4 (**permalink**) October 12th, 2008, 06:48 AM

So very sorry for your loss, you will find lots of very supportive friends here xo

teepee2 · #5 (**permalink**) October 12th, 2008, 08:10 AM

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. Unfortunately there are many other women here who have been through the horrible pain you're feeling. I'm sure you will find the advice and support you need right here

diannescruffy · #6 (**permalink**) October 12th, 2008, 08:11 AM

Hi,
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious son. I too lost my son at 24wks and I know just how unbearable the pain you are going through is. I hope you have family and good friends around you to support you with your partner being away. Two years on for me and the pain is still with me but gradually with time you learn how to live with your pain. I wish there were words I could say to make you feel better but there aren't. I'm so glad you found BB, I know I found lots of comfort and support here. Please if you ever need to talk we are always here for you.
Take care.

Regards,
Dianne

Nadine · #7 (**permalink**) October 12th, 2008, 08:14 AM

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious little boy

I can't offer any advice or stories but I can send you some big

My thoughts are with you during this hard time.

kristi14 · #8 (**permalink**) October 13th, 2008, 02:59 AM

So sorry to hear of your loss

The pain and sorrow is overwhelming to begin with. With time it eases.

Sorry to hear your partner cant be with you.

Sending you all the strength you need right now

MistyFying · #9 (**permalink**) October 13th, 2008, 06:27 AM

Mamaglo I'm so sorry your baby passed away.

adkins_81 · #10 (**permalink**) October 13th, 2008, 10:01 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss, please look after yourself

Angel Babies 3 · #11 (**permalink**) October 13th, 2008, 12:49 PM

I am so very sorry to read of the loss of your precious son.
Hugs to you,
Debbie

Flowerchild · #12 (**permalink**) October 14th, 2008, 04:18 PM

I am so sorry for the loss of your son - I am glad you have found Belly Belly. Lean on us all for support as you go through this heartbreaking time. Big hugs my love...

bbwish · #13 (**permalink**) October 15th, 2008, 12:32 AM

O Mamaglo, my heart is breaking for you.
How terrible to have to go through this without your fiancee.
It must feel so surreal and at the same time just too real.
Does he have a name yet? Where you able to take pictures of him? So you have something of him, anything?
I feel for you and if there is anything you need, let me know! I can not bring him back for you or make the pain hurt any less, but I can be there and listen to your story.

Big hugs,

jo76 · #14 (**permalink**) October 15th, 2008, 10:14 AM

hi...
i know that devastation first hand of the doc not being able to find a heartbeat as i have experienced this twice now.
Allow yourself to grieve and feel angry, sad etc, anything you need to and try and surround yourself with supportive people who will take care of you, even in silence! Its hearbreaking to go through a delivery, mine were long but one small positive is that you got to meet your baby and see a beautiful head of hair. i would not take back meeting my angels for anything and i feel blessed to have had the chance to hold them after their passing as many do not have the same opportunities. Although those memories are still raw, i do treasure them and hope in time you can do the same...
lean on the bb girls, its a wonderful support site!
take care
x jo

feeb · #15 (**permalink**) October 15th, 2008, 10:23 AM

I am so sorry to read of your loss. I lost a baby at 8 weeks when they couldnt find a heart beat.

I hope you have family and friends for support, huge hugs and I hope your fiancee is back with you soon.

dd0207 · #16 (**permalink**) October 15th, 2008, 03:20 PM

Mamaglo I am so very sorry for your loss. I too lost a baby at 21 weeks and it's so heatbreaking. Your feelings are natural and even though we never stop thinking about our angels, in time the pain eases little by little. I hope you have some good friends or family you can rely on while your fiance is away but we are all here for you in the meantime. Sending you alot of strength and big hugs

MAMAGLO · #17 (**permalink**) October 20th, 2008, 07:43 PM

hi everyone,
i just want to say thank you to everyone who read my thread and sent those wonderful replies.you all dont know how much comfort and healing your kind and loving words gave me.actually made me feel that am not all alone with in my loss and there are other people who i can bare my heart and pain to who would also share theirs with me without reservation . thank you all so much since am new its a bit difficult to mention names of those who words touched me most but i treasure them in my heart and as time goes on i know i will have more to share with all of you wonderful ladies. i need it more than you can imagine especially when i am not welcome to share so much with the people around me where i come from. everybody is uncomfortable to hear you pour out your pain of losing your babies and they just want you to forget about it quickly and move on.i am so encouraged and glad to know that i have found other women like me who i can pour out my feelings to and i know i am welcome all the time . thank you and God bless you .

diannescruffy · #18 (**permalink**) October 20th, 2008, 07:49 PM

Hi,
I'm so very glad you found BB because it is so important for us to be able to talk about our angel babies. I found also that friends and family didn't want to talk about my loss, it was like my baby had gone and was forgoton. All I wanted to do was talk about Emmanuel which is where BB helped me heal because I was able to talk to others who had also had a loss and truly understood what I was feeling.
I hope you are doing ok. Take care of yourself.

Regards,
Dianne